seriously? am i pushy? this guy i like, like hasn't talked to me in days, i haven't told him, but i've been sending out hugs on facebook and stuff, but i send those to everyone, and i invited him to west coast swing with me, but i also invited vanessa and rachel, but i don't think i told him that. oops. but now whenever i notice he's online he like automatically signs off, its annoying. i've been talking with el-bitz about it (love her to death!!!!!) and she says to just wait, but i hate waiting, and anyone who has known me for any substatial amount of time knows that. GAH!!!!!! *hits head against wall in frustration* why are guys hard to figure out? well they are to me. like he treats me like a normal friend, and nothing more, but then he gave me hug the other day, and true it was like a lame one armed hug, but still that might have been because i had my books and notebook and pencil for aural and my check book for something later, in one arm. i don't know, and then i invite him somewhere with friends and he like ignores me! someone help me?! please? oh i've also been talking to becky and rosa and christine and rachel kemp (not previously mentioned rachel) and they basically laugh at me, well rachel and christine laugh at me, but i think becky and mia are getting tired of hearing about it too. *shrug* i'd probably be gushing to debi, but she's still not talking to me, despite the happy brithday text she sent me, which confused me, but any way i'm getting off topic now, hey what a surprise! since i swear i have ADD, anyway SO not the point. gah!! i just don't know what to do, and it totally doesn't help that i think about him all the time and it makes it really hard to concentrate in classes, fuck i hate guys, not really, obviously, but they are frustrating and annoying and ugh, but they make me happy and idk! fuck!
oh and this guy, K, (no seriously that is his name) keeps hitting on me, but he's also hitting on my friend vanessa, he's nice and all, but he's 26. helloooo so not for that age difference. but there are cute guys and stuff in dance and all that, like one of the TA's he's so nice and everything and when i dance with him he's like winking at me and smiling and like poking fun at me, but also says when i dance that i'm perfect, and since i'm almost always doubled up with another girl and one guy has to lead both of us (not at the same time) but he like never says it to the other girl, hes sweet and nice a cute and he's 21, that age difference doesn't bother me, and he'll wink at me after class when he sees, me and he winked at me and gave me a high five or whatever at west coast swing on wednesday. also two of my three partners for west coast were really cute, and my third, not as cute, but i've seen worse, was my best lead of the evening and he was complimenting me and stuff, but he smelled weird to me, like he didn't smell bad, but his smell just didn't appeal to me, which was awkward cause the step we learned was the sugar push and i was about 3 inches away from him. he was so sweet tho, he said i already danced at the intermediate level, and that was my first west coast lesson. he said this when vanessa and i were aruguing over if we were going to stay for the intermediate hour, but what ever, i like the TA, but i also like Ben, but Ben like won't even respond to my messages on facebook i'm sending him, and all i did was give him the info for the west coast in case he decided to come *sigh* i don't know
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Wow, I can't even think about guys right now...the last one I talked to was the pep band director and before that I don't even know. And since I can't think about them (except the ones who I was friends with in Sonoma o'course) then there's no way I can put the energy into LIKING one, much less 57 (or however many you mentioned in this blog).
screw you i mentioned 3, er 4 or something idk, i didn't mention the guy from church in this blog! so ha! and i didn't mention dale, but then again i don't want to think of dale, he's a creeper
I can't imagine doing schoolwork and liking a guy, much less being in a relationship...it seems trivial here. And then I hear about friends of friends who already have themselves in relationships and I get really confused.
You read into things FARRRRR too much.
like me.
[you don't have to worry, I've seen everything Sondheim has done. or at least bits and pieces, if not the whole show. that's kinda why I made a joke about him being #1 on my list, since a lot of my friends know I'm unhealthily obsessed with his work.]
As for the guy thing...I dunno. I personally would just chill and wait. If a dude doesn't want to talk to you, don't worry about it. Chances are it's just coincidence or he's busy. It is school, after all.
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