i miss dancing. i haven't danced since the 18th of december, i miss it! i miss hanging out and having fun with my dancing friends, i can be myself around them, i feel totally at ease when i dance, even though i shouldn't because i'm not graceful AT ALL, but when i'm dancing i FEEL graceful, and no one makes any snide comments about how clumsy i am. i KNOW i'm not the best dancer in the world, but no one holds that against me, guys ask me (ME!) to dance, even knowing how i talk and laugh loudly, and i trip over my own feet, if i screw up i laugh and then they laugh with me, and the same goes for if they screw up (most of the time, this mostly happens with jason) and since we are all there to learn i ask them to tell me what i'm doing wrong (my usual offense is back-leading oops!) and then they ask me to tell them what they are doing wrong, and their usual offense is that they don't have strong enough frame, but usually i'm just having fun learning new things and making new friends. my mom was being amazingly sweet and was looking up places where i could dance over break and i was all like "thanks mom, but i miss my chico dancing group, my west coast swing friends, and studio one is so much fun (even though i've only been once) i didn't even dance that much (curse of being shy) but when i did i had fun, except for one incident, yeah this ALWAYS asks me to dance, and he's kind of a creeper, but i said yes when he asked me anyway and led me into a basket whip, and i couldn't go as far over to the side as i normally would because there was a couple right there so i made it smaller, and he, well, didn't, so i stepped on his feet, and then he did something and i ran into a couple on one side of us, and he tried to fix it, but over corrected and i ran into the couple on the other side of us, yeah by this point i was glad the song was going to end soon (yes i can usually tell) so that was the only dance i danced with him that night, and i was embarassed when ever i saw any of the people i ran into for the rest of the night (even though it wasn't my fault) but that was a great day, with two of my best dancing buddies, jackie and sami, total unplanned, unintentional girl's night right there, it was great, but i seem to have digressed, i was going to talk about how much i love dancing and why. the why's are basically because when i have a really good leader that won't let me back-lead or anything its great, i have a blast and most of the guys i know that i dance with that are amazing leaders (*cough*jason and kevin*cough*) will laugh with me when i can't get something right, and will work with me until i do, or at least until we change partners, jason and i were both learning this new move and neither of us could get it right and we finally figured out how to do it and then we changed partners and this guy led it slightly differently and it was like "WTF IS GOING ON?? I'M SO CONFUSED" (in my head obviously, but you get the point) but it was still fun, i love dancing, i've always been a fan of dancers, the way they can move their bodies, the seemingly effortless way they hold themselves and glide across the floor, and i love dancing a lot too, i know i'll never be the world's best dancer or anything, but taht doesn't matter, as long as i have fun, and can be myself while doing it, that's fine by me! and seeing as how i lost my original train of thought i'll stop now, if it comes back to me i'll post another blog post or something
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